first day of sch... bad. main reason is because of exams. haiz. i think i'm gonna fail maths. took maths and chinese today. having some mental stress now. how not when you have a 1 1/2 hr composition writing, den rest for 15 mins and den continue with chinese main paper for another 1 1/2 hr and den straight away have chinese listening compre. i mean its like... CRAZY! almost went dead just now when doing my chinese paper. stressed out. oh well but i'm glad tt its over! yay! left chem and physics. 2 more! haven really studied them either. haha! oh well...
woke up this morning with a burden in my heart. "sch today? argh! exams too! making it worse!" i din felt like waking up today. who does rite? its the worst feeling ever! to have an exam on the 1st day of sch when u are like totally enjoying longer sleeping time and relaxing throughout the holidays. it never gets worse than tt. oh well... one must adjust to changes quickly. i dun think i can. found it hard to relate to my classmates coz haven been toking to them for like 1 month. busy with church frens. heehee.
hmm... i think i've found myself getting rather closer to God these few days. i actually want to get closer to him due to some problem lar. i mean its like a desperate need for him right now and i hope in the future i can always have this desperate need for him. everyone shd be desiring to be like this. oh well. nvm. especially during this time when my exams are ongoing and i having a lil problem. nah shan't explain further abt this thing...
friday corporate prayer meeting... must go ok? i'll be going!
i'm already missing holidays! oh no! how am i going to pass my promos in this state? dying. oh well. not really bothered by it now. just coming to think of it. i really must thank this person for being there when i needed someone to tok to. ok he may not be close to me but i appreciate tt he listens to me and try to advice me, and also allowing me to trust him. tt day felt so much better after toking to him... but oh well. wad he can do is limited but wad God can do is limitless. learnt something. if i'm able to trust him, why can't i trust God even more? i just don't understand. he hasn't really answered my prayers yet but i know he will someday and i hope it will be soon. everytime i hear something i do not know whether izzit him or izzit juz my gut feeling. i'm afraid its an advice from the devil. oh well. i hope this thing has helped me trust Him more and be able to turn to him straight away when i'm in need cause he's always there.
be there for me lord for i need you! i'm desperate for you!
