I'm sorry I can't seem to think of ways and advices for you. I can't seem to focus right now, but still trying hard for your sake, because I know you are going through pain, pain which I won't understand. Do control when you need to yeah? I'll be praying for you. =) Cheer up! Continue life with a new purpose! Forget the past! You can't bring back the past! CHEEEEERRRR UUPPPP!!! I hope you do. Glad that you're trying. Focus on your studies. It's A levels! Don't let that affect your studies. Pray about it, and God will deliver you from your troubles. You can don't trust me, but you MUST trust God.

Ask and it shall be given.
Seek and you shall find.
Knock at the door and it shall be opened to you.

You know who are you. =) (sorry if it sounded like a command)