I've started to realise the importance in relying on God and spending time with Him during the weekdays. I've learnt of it just yesterday when I was at the Corporate House of Prayer and my heart felt so heavy. It was the first time I really felt that way, one which I do not understand why. I've thought that I've grown even closer to God after the sermon 2 weeks ago and now I'm struggling with my christian walk. That feeling is kind of you wanting to focus on God yet there's something blocking you or hindering you from focusing. During the whole thing I just felt God being so distant. Is He really that distant? It's just me who drifted away and away I guess. Everyone says they will live for God everyday, but I've finally realised that living for Him everyday is a not-so-easy thing to do. It takes alot of trust, discipline, learning and faith in order to reach that standard of what God has asked us to be at. Is there somebody out there who would gladly listen to me?

I've come to realise that Rafidah is not as innocent as she might look. She's disgusting! Yesterday after meeting we went causeway. And oh my gosh when we were going towards Popular I made a comment and she laughed. You know that horny laugh? haha. I shan't reveal what we said though. It made things more entertaining when one other friend of hers was with us and she did not understand what we were talking about. It was so hilarious. Well, that was one of the high points of yesterday. Hmmm. Be careful of Rafidah. You won't know what she's thinking at that very moment. Heehee.