I may have found out something that I didn't think I wanted to know during YMLC, but if it ever changes anything, then good for me. But, I don't think I have the knowledge or anything to deal with it.

I cried myself to sleep. Why? Because I was so afraid. I was so uncertain. I was so unsure. Didn't God promise He will always be with me? Then why am I feeling like this? I didn't know what to expect. What if it doesn't go as well as I wanted it to? I kept thinking of the risks involved. They just block out my whole mind.

There's something thats still confusing me quite a little. Worry begins with a thought, and you have to get rid of that thought. But if there's something coming up that's quite big, and as the day approaches, you know that your mind is bound to have thoughts of it. You can't deny the fact that it's approaching. How do we clear our minds of that thought? It's just so tough. Yes I know the knowledge and stuff, but when it comes down to actions, I find it very hard to do it, or more so I don't know how to do it.

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore will we not fear, tough the earth do change. And though the mountains be shaken into the heart of the seas. Though the waters thereof roar and be trouble. though the mountains tremble with the swelling thereof. There is a river, the streams whereof make glad the city of God. The holy place of the tabernacles of the Most High. God is in the midst of her. She shall not be moved: God will help her and that right early. The nations raged, the kingdoms moved: He uttered his voice, the earth melted. Jehovah of hosts s with us: The God of Jacob is our refuge. Come, behold the works of Jehovah. What desolations he hath made in the earth. He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth. He breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder;He burneth the chariots in the fire. Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. Jehovah of hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge. This is my cry Lord. Amen.