As I look back this past month, I can't help but wonder to myself, why can't I just learn from my mistakes, and its even after I know the consequences and the need for doing things right. 

It all went back to my normal lifestyle 2 weeks after my op. Its very bad. But one day I read something about complaining. And the fact that I'm always complaining about army and stuff. Maybe I should give that a stop, but its tough since no one likes army (okay generally there're a few who do). But I think right now its alright with me, since I'm left with about 78 days? Yay!

It all suddenly daunt onto me that I really want to go university desperately. I dont know why, I just felt the desire to meet new people, to actually begin to study. So weird.

I'm sort of caught up with a decision. The decision of what to do next year. I've been given a chance by God to join trackers, this 3 month "course" which ends with a mission trip and a 1 month intern in church. Or I could apply to teach in a primary school (which is awesome since all primary schools will just have morning session from next year onwards, which means working hours very short) or maybe just volunteer at faithacts. Many have asked me to go for trackers, and yes it does sound fun, but I dont know if I'm able to take it. I have been talking to people who have been through it, and they told me that it was a very good experience, although someone mentioned that it was very shiong. Time is running out for me to sign up for trackers. My mum also encouraged me to join. Maybe I will. Depends. Right now I just hope for time to pass as quickly as possible now. =)